CAN WE CLOSE A CLOSED DOOR?
Where should I begin?
Should I step out?
Should I step in?
I’ve walked a hundred steps
Locked in a closed door
Where should I stay?
Behind the closed door?
In front of the closed door?
Ah..
It’s closed
A closed door
I stepped into the closed door
Wandering around
Put one, my dream
Put two, my heart
Put three, I fell
Fell down
It’s closed
A closed door
Should I open?
Should I close?
Ah.. It’s a closed door
Can we close a closed door?
Badung, 18th September 2020
ANOTHER NIGHT OF INSOMNIA
11.35
Bed and pillows are ready
The prayers are all whispered
The eyes don’t want to be closed
11.40
Five minutes passed
Still widely awake
How many cigarettes needed?
Not sure
11.50
Mosquitos humming happily
Blood blood blood
Sweet blood
Sweet blood
Blood blood blood
11.55
Another cigarette
More prayers
Ahhh.. The light!
Too bright!
12.00
Sleep sleep sleep sleep
I hear my self singing lullaby
It won’t work
I won’t sleep
I won’t dream
Another night of insomnia
Badung, 18th September 2020
WORDS OF STAY
You won’t see me tomorrow
Nor after a week
Neither year ahead
The words of stay I’ve said
Couldn’t keep you longer
Those words of stay I’ve said
Keep me farther away
You won’t see me tomorrow
Nor on your dreams
Neither behind the shadows
Wind has kidnapped me
Those words of stay I’ve said
Will left only words
Lock them in the box
Throw it farther away
Badung, 1st March 2020
KNOCK KNOCK
Knock knock
Who’s there?
It’s me
An early 30’s woman
My shape they can’t resist
Knock knock
Who’s there?
It’s me
My god’s house isn’t yours
I pray to the earth
You worship the sky
Knock knock
Who’s there?
It’s me
I believe I will born again
Paying my sins
Yet
You are chasing angels in heaven
Knock knock
Knock knock
Knock knock
It’s me
Open the door
Knock knock
GO AWAY!!
Badung, 2nd March 2020
THE SHADOW
I am walking beside you
Can’t you see?
I am holding a thorny rose
Can’t you smell my blood?
I am whispering love lines on your ears
Can’t you hear?
I repel every each of your doubt
Can’t you feel my burning breath?
Once you’ve seen me
Covering with mud
Once you’ve heard me
Singing the death song
My presence as shadow
I am only a shadow
Lingering as a shadow
No need to hide me
My existence even questioned
Badung, 12th October 2020
