A Beautiful Damn!
Why don’t you love me the way I love you?
Why I always be the one who is waiting for your smile?
Why you never look at me just once?
While I’m here watching you all the time
Thinking of you every second
Wish that I can move on
Forget all about you
But when I remember that face, that smile
It hurts me a lot
When I flashback,
It hurts me a lot
I can not stand it
I can’t stop smiling when I think about you
Damn!
I really love you
(2010)
Ryhtem to Forget(thing)
For a momment
I really wanna forget this world
Forget about me
Forget about you
Forget about us
Forget about them
Forget about my life
Forget about everything
So I don’t have to remember anything
Just wanna look at the sky
Enjoying the time that I have
In a place that wind goes slowly
Wipe all of my pain
Then I wipe my tears
With this cynical face
Realize….
(2010)
Song For Us
Do you remember when we fight?
Do you remember when we arguing a lot?
Do you remember when we laugh and cry together?
Now it’s gonna be just a memory..
You take your path now..
Into a new world…
While I still try to find my own way..
Do you really think that he’s the one?
He’s the one that can make you happy?
Say it to me loudly, answer me straightly,
Because I just want to see, your smile..
After you take that step..
We can’t go back.
Every moment that we have..
Just us..
I can’t go back..
We can’t go back..
We will miss each other..
But I’ll be okay..
We will be okay..
You will fight there.
I will fight here.
(2010)
Mereka Bilang, Saya Bilang
Aku tumbuh dengan perbandingan:
“Dia tak secantik kakaknya, dia terlalu gemuk, dia kurang feminine”
Aku terbiasa menjadi pilihan terakhir:
“Why her? Why not her sister?”
Aku terbiasa dengan perbedaan perlakuan:
“Can u move? I wanna take a picture there” then they saw my sister,
“Oh hey, can we take a picture together?”
I used to blame myself. Why I’m not pretty like my sisters, like they want me to be?
Karena mereka aku terbiasa dengan penolakan.
Maka tak pernah kubuka pintu selain pintu kamarku.
Kalian bilang itu salahku!
Kalian bilang aku lemah!
It’s about me, it starts with me.
If only I’m more stronger
If only I could ignore them.
If only I don’t care about what people think about me.
I just wanna be loved. I’m just twelve years old back then.
I hate you, I hate me!
Because of you, I really thought that I’m unworthy,
I’m ugly, nobody loves me, I’m nothing special.
I hate me!
Why I believe in them? Why I’m so weak?
Why I let them let me down?
Well hey, let me tell you
Now, I’m different. I’m learning about myself.
I’m pretty, I deserve every love that I can have.
I can wear any clothes that I like, I’m allowed to dream big
I’m special. I can be everything that I wannabe.
You can’t let me down! I love me!
You are nothing!
(2018)
Pasal Fakir Miskin dan Anak Terlantar
Close your eyes, you do not want to see them
Neither to them who saw many starvations
Corpses of ants and bugs are their friends
It is dark already
The mother is slicing bread
Her child is crying while holding a doll with only one hand left
Half for her child and half for a stray dog that has been waiting
“The bread is very hard to chew, it hurts my teeth”
Her eyes start to gloom
If only…
Under a bright bloody colored umbrella
With only a small lamp above their head
Small plate
A few fork and spoon
A cheap knife
And a simple fan
If only….
Close your eyes you do not want to see them
They also do not want to see what is left on the trash bin
There is no food there
They know
But with tears on their eyes, they keep searching
If only….
They promise them bread and meat
But they only got bruises and thin mat
Under the bright moon
They can’t return
But they have to go home soon
Or the night patrol will catch them
And treat them like not humans
If only…..
Close your eyes, you do not want to see them
But you do not have to
They will not here tomorrow
Only the doll with both of it hands have been sewn
Of course, it is on the trash bin
If only….
(2019)
